Mis Palabras

I have been doing a lot of writing; I'm going to start posting up more poems, so be sure to come back. I have been editing my novella at full force, wiping out chapters and moving onto the next. Making progess. I am proud of myself. I am settled in this year of 2007, praying it works out. I have not bee worried about much lately, just taking every day as it comes, and doing some major relaxing.

The job is going great. It gets boring sometimes, you know being a substitute, because I am not creating lesson plans or actually teaching, just kinda giving out assignments and making sure they work. Can't be any harder than that. There are bad days, but more good days than ever. I've taken advantage of my time and did some writing and enjoyed some interesting books like The Mambo Kings Sing Songs of Love.



Tony was sweet to rent the movie for me, but let me tell you, READ THE BOOK! It's much better!! Always is that way, right?





Speaking of Tony, our relationship is going great. Every day my love grows more and more. I look into his dark romantic eyes, see so much light, and I know in my heart, that's he's being true. We have ups and down, what relationship does not? Through all those downs though, we still see things the way we should, and it only strengthens our relationship. So, I won't take words back or wish something did not happen. He's done so much for me, taking me down roads that have been twisted or narrow or so wide- I cannot decide whether to run in the other direction or pull closer to him, in the end, I feel his warm lips gliding over mine, and there's so much love there, I wouldn't trade it for the world.

We had a fun special Valentine's Day (we even gave out V-Cards with photos of us), we celebrated early. I worked @ the Mall the weekend before, something I do for extra $$$. He showed up w/ a bouquet of flowers, a big gift bag with an extra large pink teddy bear that said "kiss kiss!" a card with our photo and sweet words inside, a box of chocolates, that's all I can remember right now. He took me out to eat for fettucini alfredo - yuuuuuuuum!! I bought him some really nice dress shirts from Dillard's. It was great, our 2nd V-Day together, so all special and sentimental.

We still talk about marriage, he still has not propsed, but I am not rushing it, just ecstatic that he wants to marry me and spend the rest of his life with me! :) Ecstatic because he reminds me every few days. Ecstatic because of the change in me- three years ago, i was not man-hating, but i was selfish and did not like the thought of marriage, never thought I'd be where I am today, but here I am, and loving it!! Amazing what happens when we stop thinking of ourselves and leave everything up to God, He blesses us with joy!

I made an important decision a week or two ago, I am going to go ahead and puruse my Master's, here in Victoria. I have to stay here in this area because of my certification, so I might as well take advantage of what is available here. I can get 2 Master's, one in English and one in Comm. in about 2 years at the max. (I am hoping I can do it - grabbing those ganas I used to get my Bachelor's) I talk about pursuing dreams, and going after what we want all the time, well you know what? I am also always talking about living by example, I gotta start walking that talk now.

Something else great is happening - I am falling in love with faith, my roots, I'm going to convert to Catholicism. This is MY decision, not Tony's. Try to convince people that. He's asked me three or four times on a serious note, "Are you serious about this?" Yes, I am serious; I've never felt more at home. I was baptized Catholic after all. Both my grandmothers were Catholic, it's in my blood. Tony's padrino will probably be mine, too. We are going to talk to the priest, and I may be able to get my sacraments as soon as Holy Saturday of this year. I am looking forward to this conversion, because I feel like it will complete me, because it's how I approach God and my savior, Jesus Christ, and I want to approach Him in the most comfortable way possible. I am still learning the ways, and Tony has been so nurturing. I admit - there for awhile, I was "lost" spiritually. Tony kept saying I was growing, but I was battling conflicts. In the end, I've learned to trust in the Lord with all my heart.