Before I Shut My Eyes & Before We Finish Cisneros

Before I lay down for the night, I will write. I will write because without writing, I could not live. We are going to finish Cisneros tomorrow in my Ethnic Lit course.

It will be a sad ending, because as we've discussed her in class, I feel as if I know her as a close friend when I talk about her, because I know so much about her life, her books, her writing, her purpose. I can relate so well to her.

That's the way I wish to live my life, with a vase of roses, and desk of pens in a colorful home. Sandra Cisneros has been my inspiriation as a writer since I was seventeen years old, it is her words I turn to, over and over again, like a trusting friend who is always there. By the way, I am beginning to sound like Emerson saying that books are my friends. I have her poetry books, stashed underneath my school books where I can easily pull out My Wicked Wicked Ways and read. Vintage Cisneros is there on the shelf where I grab it and read through my favorite sections of The House on Mango Street and Caramelo. http://www.sandracisneros.com Check it out.

Before I shut my eyes, I wanted to say how content I am once again. I find it devastating what happened with the hurricane, yet I also find it fulfilling at the same time because I have been able to help people that come into our insurance office. This is one of my purposes in life: to help people. I've donated items already; I donated money today as well. Whether I have it or not, I remind myself the Lord will provide. God gives back what we give out. Without even thinking, I agreed to donate yesterday for the relief fund.

At lunch-time, guess what? I find out that I got a SCHOLARSHIP! I was so happy because as some of you know, I had to take out student loans. I didn't expect to see that scholarship; I didn't see it coming. I am so grateful that I could throw myself on the ground and thank God. Woohoo! Every little bit helps. I've been working on this other essay for another scholarship, so just maybe my tuition will be covered in the Spring. :)

I had to share that great news! I'm happy, truly happy - bursting with joy! What can I say? Life does get better!