What More Could I Want?

The windows are being tinted on my brand-new 2005 Chevy Impala right now (will post pics as soon as I take some). I'm back in college, making new friends along the way. My job is great! I am excited about doing LEAD and promoting education to this area's youth. I am extremely excited about this because I love giving presentations about financial aid, college awareness, and how it IS possible to go to college.

I have everything I could ever want in a materialistic sense. My mom thinks I'm too materialistic because I like nice things in fashion, jewelry, accessories, cars... She thinks I need to focus on the things that money doesn't buy. I do focus on these things as well.
I feel rich because I have a family to go home to, even though we fight and argue sometimes.
I am rich because I have my baby goddaughter to watch grow up and help nurture.
I am rich because I have nieces and nephews to watch grow up as well. With these all these kids in my family, I don't need to have kids, lol.
I am rich because of the wonderful friendships I have in my life and I'm always ready to make more.
Most importantly, I am rich because I realize that in every thing that I do, God is there to guide me and strengthen me. Every time I fall, I trust that He will pick me up.

I am content with all that I have in life right now. I ask what more could I want?
Well, maybe a scholarship to pay my tuition and students loans off. Oh hell, it happens. God'll give me a good job to pay these debts off. What more could I want? To publish a novel that I need to complete.

I took a priority quiz once. This is what the result was - I'm trying to remember here...
1.) God
2.) career
3.) family
4.) friendships
5.) romance

My friends took the same quiz and were teasing me because of how romance fell at the bottom... Well....it's not that I don't want romance. It's just not something I am looking for right now. I am open for friendships with potential for a relationship. I can contradict myself right now, because my other blog "relfexionex" states that I want a relationship. Yeah, ooookay I want a relationship in time. I don't want to jump headfirst, eyes shut into a relationship with some fool I just met. And, hell no, I ain't about to jump into bed with some fool. The reason I make this last statement because I've noticed lately how a lot of guys that try to talk me, don't even hesitate to tell me their peepee is hard for me. I'm like "wtf?" I wanted conversation and friendship and you're asking for sex? I just met you, fool! I know some people jump in bed on the first night; I'm not going to deny it. But, when a guy approaches me, talking like that, it's a huge turnoff.

What more could I want? Hmmm....more time with R. Because he treats me like a lady. I've never been admired the way he admires me. He wants me to finish school, get my Master's. Keep it together. He warns me, tells me "you better not do something stupid like get pregnant or get married." The reason he makes these statements is because he knows what pressure I go through @ home. I don't even want to get into that. Too long a story. All I can say is: my family values family and starting a family more than education and pursuing my career. He knows me so well, knows that I want to get married upon completion of grad school, have a baby, settle down for a bit. WRITE. But he also understands what comes first. I love to be admired for these positive traits. By the way, R is my FRIEND. I cannot emphasize this any more. The tarot cards say we are not meant to be together; he was my dad or big brother in another life.

What more could I want? I am content now, I really am. I want to just sit back, enjoy my life, finish up this Bachelor's degree, get ready to move on. Spend time with my friends. Spend time watching my nieces and nephews grow up. Last night, Jazzy was drinking water out of her baby shampoo bottle like she was taking shots. I could not stop laughing!